One thing you can always count on....in the maze, changes are a guarantee. Since my last visit (4 months ago...gasp!), my Uncle has exited the maze and is now in his eternal home with our Heavenly Father, free of all pain, and visiting with friends and family that made the journey prior to him.
I think one of the biggest, personal changes within the maze for me is trying to learn how to be the best Mom I can be to a daughter that is slowly, but oh-so-quickly, growing up and becoming a young lady. I'm finding it to be much more difficult than I imagined it would be. Trying to find that fine line of balance between freedom and protection, learning how to give guidance in a whole new way, and realizing that as she continues to age, the line will continue to change. Seriously? Right as I find that balance it's gonna change? Yep, it appears so. But above all, trying to come to grips with the fact that as each day passes, she is one day closer to becoming an adult. One day closer to stepping into her own world, free to make her own decisions and to learn her own lessons. Free to travel the maze. Me? I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to adjust to that. What turns will I take in the maze as this time quickly approaches? What awaits me in the maze as a forty-something year old that has to discover the maze in a way that is very foreign? I don't know. Quite frankly, it's not in my nature to like "not knowing." :)
I hope the maze has been kind to you since we last spoke. I hope it has given you smiles, memory-making moments, and love beyond measure. If it has, pay it forward. If it hasn't, stick around...someone is bound to share. :)
Until next time....I'll see ya in the box.
